I debated on if I should post about this on the blog but when I started this blog I told myself I wasn't going to just write about the good times. The surgery was to fix the structure of my uterus in hopes that it would lower the risk of the placenta tearing and preterm labor like I had with Dane. I have had a different doctors for each baby and they all have thought my uterus was one of two different structures. One of them is conducive to surgery and one is not. I had tests done and the results were I wasn't a good candidate for surgery, but my OB Doctor felt like it could be a combination of the two from what he saw during my C-Section.
Bracken & I thought and prayed a lot and decided we'd go in and have the surgery. The doctor would look and see if there was anything to fix, fix it, and if not then just not do anything. Turns out there was nothing the doctor could do and now I have two new little scars and a sore belly.
I was ready for that to be the case. I even went into the surgery thinking it would just be helpful so if we have a situation similar to Dane's again I won't think, what if we had the surgery done? Expensive emotional reassurance, but worth it to me. Hopefully we won't be in that situation though and my next pregnancy will be full term with no problems like Kamri's was.
Yesterday I was feeling pretty good. I stayed sitting in bed most the day but I got some work done and read. Today I felt so sick, I think I caught a flu bug. I couldn't sit up without feeling sick. I couldn't eat breakfast or lunch. Finally around two I threw up and started feeling better. I'm feeling better now, which I'm grateful for because I'm trying not to sink into the attitude of the surgery being pointless and me hurting for nothing.
I'm grateful for Bracken who has been taking great care of me. I'm grateful for my mom who has taken my kids for the week so I can recover and don't have to worry about them. I'm grateful that even though everything doesn't work out exactly how we want it, life can still be beautiful.
"Come what may, and love it. " -Elder Wirthlin
7 comments:
Skye I wish that I had know about your surgery. I'm so sorry about the results. I hope that you start to feel better. I have been trying to call you for a while. Hopefully I will get a hold of you next time. Love ya.
Thanks for posting this for me at least! It's great to know what's going on even though we're miles apart. Wish I could be there to help out. Recover quick!
Skye,I would have chosen expensive peace of mind too. I hope you heal quickly, emotionally and physically.
Sorry they weren't able to fix anything for now. Like you said, at least now you have done all you can and you can have that peace of mind. And hopefully your next pregnancy it won't even be an issue. You have such a positive attitude about it all. It was so good to see you a while back. I'm really glad you stopped by. We miss having you guys in our neighborhood.
Man, I am sorry it turned out to be nothing you can fix yet, but you are right about the emotional assurance. I went through eight years of 'what-if' and it always ends up the way it is supposed to. I hope you have a good recovery and that lots of happiness will come as a result of this experience!!
Hey Skye, I've been following your blog for a little while now and have come up to speed with your trials lately. I'm so sorry. You seem to be in good spirits though and have an amazing testimony! I'd like to e-mail you with some good news that you might be interested in. Please send me an e-mail so I can tell you about it. angelgrl1684@yahoo.com
Hope you are feeling well again... it's nice to see your cute little family. Its also nice to see the struggles you go through and how you grow from them.
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